But as people with this disorder we must fight for better days so we don’t give in to the stats about suicide and having schizophrenia. We must work hard to take care of ourselves and never never give up…
Going to start a morning ritual of writing upon waking.
Today is a sad day for our family; a loved one is losing his battle with cancer. Troops are rallying around him. Blessed be God forever ❤️
So sad story, both my parents are in care facilities different ones and it’s really hard not seeing them anymore. Done crying 😢
I thought up an idea to make a clue board for my mom who is pretty with it which is great 👍 I’m putting little clues that I hope she can get but anyway it will be good for her to stretch her brain 🧠 and she’s looking forward to it!
She even gets a prize!
One of the clues is a penny with a date on it significant to her life. I get to dig through hundreds of pennies to find the year of her wedding and my dads birth year etc…
Fun mirthful activity!
Did a scavenger hunt last week at the house for my adult children. Hey gotta at least try to make life fun during this pandemic!
Thinking about funny things is hard when you’re trying. I say the wittiest things when I’m not trying! So I’m gonna stop trying.
We are 93 million miles from the sun! Wow! Just in case one didn’t know.
I tried to do something diet wise without checking with my pdoc. It wasn’t wise. I tried to do a fruit and veggie cleanse but by today the second day I found myself not doing well with my psych meds on just those. So I stopped…
I do not consider this a failure except that I should have checked with him. But there was all this encouragement so I did and it was fun for one day. Lesson learned. I am learning to love me even when I mess up.
My theme for August is patience which is a virtue I am getting better at but have a long way to go. I realized tonight that I need to practice it with myself first…
I have a mental health disorder that needs to be babied at times. That is the truth. I say weird things sometimes and am totally uncomfortable in many social settings but do better one on one. I am learning things about myself just when I thought I was done learning.
I am starting to study again. Right now current studies are alchemy, empath energy and anything fitness. The home gym is coming along nicely and have used it for a week and a day! When I have a gym membership I have great intentions when I sign up but never end up using it. Now I have a free gym in my backyard my kids put together in an old shed and I love being out there especially when it is sunny.
Also been gardening quite a bit which is huge progress thanks to my supplements. Got my son to start taking it as he suffers from lack of motivation and can’t see I notice a difference. I felt it right away I think. Poor memory still at times…meds side effects stink.
Lastly, wanted to touch on a topic Fractured Faith recently blogged about. Recovery from anything really and in my case is recovery from Schizophrenia/Schizoaffective disorder. To recover means to return to normal. This is impossible to me, please share in the comments if you feel differently. I love to hear others stories! I will never be the same as I was before I received the gift of Schizophrenia in 2006 at age 36. 50 now and doing the best minus today than ever.
It’s late…I’m relaxing with earbuds and kroq playing loud. A station I have loved for 30 plus years. Alternative music with spurts of weirdness and sometimes offensive… I just ignore those brief comments.
But anyway they are a great positive station that has a great vibe and uplifting messages throughout the music. Love chilling with them.
On to my day… it sucked. Covid stuff. Afraid of germs so much and that my husband who went back to work Tuesday might catch the virus and bring it home.
I read today that fear and hope cannot exist at the same time so choose one! I choose hope, hope that the world 🌎 will return to normal or at least a new normal one day..
Tomorrow will share my most recent delusion. It’s crazy so I hope you check back tomorrow but I’m tired 😓
But the depression and possibly psychosomatic symptoms creeping in.
Need to exercise and practice self care while the whole world is seemingly falling apart.
I see my psychiatrist this week which is great and until then I will try harder to take care of myself mentally and physically.
Sitting in my chair for hours is not healthy right now.
Here are my solid plans to get back on track.-
Stay off social media ✅ clean my kitchen, work out and get those natural endorphins going, stop stress eating and eat the fresh veggies in my fridge maybe some chicken kale 🥬 🍜 and do something fun like watch frozen 2 on Disney!
What are some ways you all are staying sane right now?
So not feeling extra special when I look back at my life. Nothing heroic all very mundane but with a few moments of confusion and unexplainable happenings…
The year I received the gift of schizophrenia my world 🌎 lifted me so high on life receiving messages from above which still happens from time to time. And then the meds stopped the dialogue that was pretty constant and confusing.
But when God wants his will done in me who am I to refuse?
Today is the type of day when I will force myself to get sh$& done!
Just gonna do it because yesterday was a shitty day I don’t want to repeat!
I found out the other day I still have the gift of healing which I only use when God directs me…
So here I am still fighting each and every day I am alive. Today it’s in the garden I will work ☺️
In all things I do may love be at the forefront of all I do…
for the Divine
for my loved ones, especially my parents, husband and three children
I must love in deed and word
Ignoring my disorder as it causes me to go from project to project without thinking about God and all that is good.
I feed myself with spiritual readings on Eastern philosophies, Catholic teachings especially about Mary who was God’s greatest gift to this world.
Mothers are so special that even God wanted one and it is through her that we have our redemption. She is perfect and from her I learn how to love.
What has precipitated this post is a situation that caused me much distress within my marriage. But I asked Mary for guidance and she does not fail to go to the Father who art in heaven and present my needs. Things are much better now that I was able to be honest with him about my needs. The Divine is so good and wants good for us all through His love for Mankind and all that he hopes for us to realize in this lifetime!