Totally clean oh my!

Well my little hiatus is over! I have detoxed successfully off nicotine and am sober, clean and even off caffeine! This is nuts!

Allen Carrs books easy way to quit smoking/vaping and drinking has made me a happy non smoker forever! It basically ruins your desires to ever smoke, drink or eat junk food again! Wow!

I knew February would be the shift in the alignment of the planets to bring much good light and joy to me and many who are open to receive the many blessings the Universe is readily handing out. God is so good!

I am sifting through some paperwork, taxes and whatnot and then will be working on my 7 ebooks again.

So much has happened since I last wrote! A tsunami of good, money and ideas are flowing. I lost communication with my dearest friend but that sad truth is a story for another day. I think I am just not meant to have close friends but that’s ok with me because I’ve been much more productive not having her in my life.

I will share more soon but just wanted to let you all know I am doing well! Quitting vaping has decreased my anxiety and quitting coffee has removed my digestive issues!

Can’t wait to get back to regular blogging! Thank you all for the wonderful support! I have received a few mental health tips from my readers for the books that I will be trying to finish end of March but no pressure. If anyone else has tips feel free to share them on here or email me at: Victoriamariealonso@yahoo.com

Peace love light and joy

Victoria

Good is coming in many ways…

The planets are aligned;we are ready for good to come. For me it is financial and inner as I continue to face my demons.

But if you are reAding this emit to the universe all your desires and don’t leave any out! We can claim good! It will be manifested if we desire it! A pen and paper can help!

A good solid day of running errands. With my pup, my faithful travel companion. Picking up essentials and a few snicker bars for Valentine’s Day.

Life is good and I look forward to each new day…

Peace love light and joy

Pax

Victoria

Easily obsessed…

No surprises here! Jason mraz has done it again as I have uncovered a unique version of his song I’m yours! It’s perfect inspirational music 🎶 that puts a skip in my step and soul.

I would share it but I’m on my phone but it’s on YouTube, a concert 🎵 with raining Jane right after the intro! Check it out and if you can’t find it let me know and I will add the link.

Today is a good day! I’m wearing purple today, flowered workout pants and violet top. I feel clean and pretty. My husband loves the color of my hair right now which is funny because I just bought some burgundy hair dye but will save it for another time. He is not one for many compliments so when he said my hair is beautiful I’m gonna keep it!

Spending the evening at a friends. Should be fun!

Have a great weekend! Had a hard visit with my dad yesterday so taking a break today to relax.

Pax

Victoria

Late night blog…

Hot tea, incense burning, lavender oil on pillow, and hand lotion, music so pretty, winding down for the night but it has been a crazy sort of day…

Melt down, recovering still, must be gentle with myself…

My best friend knows and is praying 🙏

No voices no messages and grateful for that!

I toy with danger at times and last night I got too close to the flames 🔥

Tonight it’s a 180’ turn

Much better and not bored

Good night 💤

Peace love light and joy

Pax

Victoria

God is love…

And love is everything. In our love for the source of all that is good! Love must permeate my every action and belief.

I believe in an equal world 🌎 for all nations, genders, sexuality or lack thereof, religions, religious and atheists too! And to all who believe in communicating with the dead and God.

Bless you all! Every country, all people!

Namaste peace love light and joy

Pax

Victoria

Shazam… my best thoughts for 2021…

A world 🌎 of peace, unity and less mental health stigma! I see this for 2021 with January still being hard but great things coming in February 2021!!

The planets will be aligned uniquely all because the Source of all that is good wills it so!

My personal goals matter and so do yours! It’s not about resolutions seriously but rather a way of life with kindness and love and joy at the center of it all near the heart ❤️ of Jesus!

Don’t worry about a thing! Just set your intention every day and watch as it gets manifested. Life is not long enough to do, say and write all that is important.

It’s about discernment. Does my next minute of activity need to be where I am? Or somewhere else? I am willing to help anyone through email correspondence and phone if needed, to help anyone find their purpose in life.

Before making the decision to work with me consider a few things, first are you willing to be open to new possibilities? Or are you content with your life? If you’re not I’m willing to assist.

I am not a therapist but am holding a masters degree in psychology and bachelors in sociology.

I have been diagnosed since 2008 with schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder, ocd, bipolar tendencies and anxiety. I am stable now for many years and love to connect with others. I saw Russia visited this blog recently! Welcome!

Also Ireland and many countries. Let’s connect!

I can be reached victoriamariealonso@yahoo.com

God bless and happy new year!!! 🎊🎆🎈

Pax

Love light and joy

Victoria

I am what I am…

I am nothing more; nothing less. Exactly perfect how I am. My good, my bad, my disorder which gives me great insight into my condition.

Found out today that it costs me practically $300 per visit for my psychiatrist visits New insurance baloney but I’m good so will see him less often and do get free samples but worries that my new insurance isn’t that great.

So what God always provides. I am blessed for sure. I am living in the moment and have found peace in my heart and soul. I am no longer troubled about things. I have acceptance and gratitude for all that is and all that is to come!

God bless all of you whatever your beliefs or lack thereof life is short so shout out a prayer to the Universe and Godspeed…

Merry Christmas 🎄

Pax

Victoria

In your hands now…

I trust God. It is up to Him along with my free choice to do or not do His will for me. I get to have a say but also believe in destiny. At any moment in my path I can change the deck of cards and look to Him who made everything…

Life sometimes sucks. The passing of my brother in law seems unfair when there are so many other f$%^&ing assholes out there. Same with senseless crime. It is too much for me to think about at this time so will stick with I know…

I know that God loves me with all that He is which is a lot, it is everything. And I know He has this same love for each one of you and all the world. Even people who appear lost…

my disorder is part of His plan for me!

i am not useless, had to take a break, was feeling useless ha ha

I have a purpose and this blog is a part of it. It has reached around the world and I hope and pray it inspires some if not all of you to NEVER GIVE UP! No matter what. Life is worth living!

peace, love light and joy to all of you

pax

Victoria

Morning musing cont…

Morning, as it does, has become evening and I am quite somber tonight reflecting upon the gift of life that God has bestowed upon us all. He can take this gift away or not, it is up to Him. When He wants us home, I shall not delay but jump in His arms and finally get to see Him face to face.

It has been a long day as I sit her in the peace of the night, dog breathing softly next to me asleep in her bed and the other one, my princess, is atop the bed in my meditation room where I sleep and spend much of my day reflecting upon life and listening to the usual, Jason Mraz in his beachlife festival in the Philippines 2019. How I pray for you Philippines!

Not a usual day but got something done and fed me and the family so that’s good. Much sadness mixed with this anticipatory grief at my brother in laws impending death. Pray with me for a miracle. I do want him to remain a while longer for my sister’s sake especially. He is magnanimous and I love him. He’s a good one for sure.

I no longer welcome death, no I send out to the universe vibes of longevity for all to be in God’s will. I used to want to die but I have many protective factors that reduce my chance at suicide among people with schizophrenia. Tomorrow I will write in the am about protective factors.

pax

victoria

My life…

Peaceful

Amazing

I notice the little things often throughout the day  and am amazed at how something so simple, which I may of ignored prior to all this new era of strangeness, can bring me great joy… a flower, a small bug, a smell, a taste…I noticed these things before but now I really try to make them last.

I have my share of problems though and the delusions are not always at bay but today they are~ so it is a good day.

Nice not to have God giving me messages all the time…. things never working out.  But the quiet of heaven also brings a certain sadness and loss although it wasn’t real it was quite special and beautiful.

Today it was a shower that made me joyful.  The hot water and cleaning of my body and care taken with lotion and conditioner.  I feel clean and am pleased that my husband just came home from working at my son’ s yard and is also taking a shower.  Clean couple for how long?

Today was also really cool.  I bought a kiddie pool last year when it was hot and never used it.  Well it was in the eighties today and me and my adult daughter went in it for several hours.  It was so much fun just hanging out with her being silly in a kiddie pool.  Splashing and the doggies hanging out with us.  Great times…

I am working on my May blog series.  Wish I could just share it now but really want to perfect each blog.  Right now in case you can’t tell I just right off the cuff and it doesn’t always makes sense perfectly when I reread my posts.  I reread them because sometimes I forget what helped me prior and it is awesome to have it all recorded on my blog which has been active since 2013.

My first day of the series starting May 1 is on the benefits of yoga.  I don’t practice this near enough.  But when it does it grounds me.  So I will keep trying to get my mat out.

An injury has prevented me from walking my usual 3-5 miles a day.  Stupid toe.  But it is getting better.  Today I gardened in the morning and it was great.  I am not much of a morning person.  The meds I take at night 3mg of Risperdal keeps me drowsy in the am but I wanted to beat the heat so I got out there at 10!!!  A miracle for me.

Oh, dear Jesus, we need a miracle right now, a cure, a healing of the world, by your blood I claim your healing power amen

pax

Victoria