It started today on Facebook. I got a message from Jason Mraz’s sister (didn’t even know he had one) who had noticed I comment a lot on his fan page and she asked me why I never went to his fan page and said hi? I told her I was shy but she encouraged me to do so and I did. I got on hangouts and she let him know I was messaging him to accept it. He did. He was so nice and caring, even asked if there was anything he could do for my dad. I said prayers. He said he would.
I also told him that in 2012 his song “I won’t give up” check it out here. kept me from taking my own life. It came out in 2011 I believe. I told him God was guiding him and would continue to do so… he said I was sweet and lovely. I told him he made me cry a little. Oh gosh he just messaged me back…I’m in shock over communicating with my favorite all time musician. I am a bit star struck but also know he is just a human being like us, who has become successful because of his love for all. I’m gonna check the message now…
He made me cry again. Of course I questioned if it was really him but I checked and his sister is who messaged me and connected us. I told him to stop making me cry. I’m so weird. But this is surreal.
Anyways right after we started messaging I learned that my niece gave birth to their first baby girl today which happens to be the 32nd wedding anniversary of my brother and sister in law (I call her my sister) her parents. Wow! Great news! Healthy little girl who is yet to be named.
My heart is bursting with love for my family and the whole world.
Today I actually also in between the excitement attended two classes at Safe Haven (virtually), one on cultivating love and compassion with ourselves and the other one was a guided meditation. I struggle with guided meditation though and instead was thinking about if I was going to get to talk to my peer counselor at Safe Haven.
But the one on cultivating love and compassion with ourselves was very interesting. At first I just listened half-heartedly because they were talking about anger. I don’t get angry these days, rarely I should say…when I do it is ugly inside and I don’t like myself. Anyway they were talking about an underlying emotion causing the anger. Have any of you experienced this? I am so out of touch with my emotions beyond happy and sad that this is a hard concept for me to comprehend. Could it be frustration, irritibality, or rebellion. If those are possibly my underlying emotions of anger, what causes them? Is rebellion even an emotion or a response better I think.
I will have to attend this class again and get some answers as I know this will help with my self-integration work. Yesterday was good work but today I’ve been distracted but in my journal last night I wrote that I need to slow down with integrating. so there ya go.
Tomorrow I am still without a car and can’t visit my dad until Saturday:( <3<3<3
Anyway, got another message from Jason Mraz. Has anyone checked out his section on my page? Check it out on the right if you want to read more about how this amazing gifted singer/songwriter has touched my life with his music!
peace love light and joy