On upcoming hearing…

My disability hearing is coming up on August 14, I will simply state the truth..

That I am disabled and unable to hold down a decent job.  My anxiety rules my days although I do sleep at night.

I tried to work outside my field and did well in the training part of the job but when I was out of training I found it very hard to remember all that I needed to do and was severely stressed out each day I went to work.  My psychiatrist agrees and recommends that I don’t work.  I do help my frail mother at times and go see my dad who had a stroke and is paralyzed at a care facility.  But to hold down a job I just don’t feel capable due to the Schizoaffective Disorder, Schizophrenia plus depression.

I am not worried, God has my back but it is still stressful to go through it all and show up in front of a judge.

Pax

Victoria

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One has to laugh…

So my appointment at the psychiatrist went well.  After I shared with him all the positive experiences I am having with God He was not overtly concerned but asked if it interferes with my functioning.  It did not I shared with him.  When I brought it up that many of my readers suffer from negative experiences he said that that was more often the case with people who share my disorder, Schizoaffective, or Schizophrenia.  I am fortunate I guess but I feel the pain of those who have more negative experiences.  It must be very hard to live with that sort of reality.  My reality is good; I feel I am in God’s will in all things, confusion and all.

But what made me laugh was when I was leaving and I asked him when he wants to see me back.  He pondered the question (normally I see him every 3 months) but instead he said, “a month”  and then added “or two”.  I chose the latter but laughed that he is concerned about my connection with God.  I am not…

I submit all things to my Creator who made me, and you and all people and heaven and earth!

Pax

Victoria

No longer delusional… so happy to say!

Hello Readers,

Tonight it finally happened, the deepest delusion fell away at some bizarre thought I had and it had to do with publishing my book.

This is tremendous news and I feel so happy about it!  The weight of the world is off of my shoulders and I praise God for helping me to get to the bottom of this conundrum.  It has been a mystery for so long, since 2006 so many nights ago…

Pax

Victoria

i’Mpossible Volume 2, a great read and collaborator who put it all together…

Just did a Podcast for Josh Rivedal who put this book together.  His questions were thought provoking today and got me to open up a little bit for the interview.  This book should be read by all…

See below for my previous introduction and synopsis of book

I am proud to say I am a part of this book and after reading it can highly recommend it to anyone with a disorder, a loved one or anyone interested in mental health.  Josh Rivedal has done an excellent job putting this book together and his passion for finding people with compelling stories shines on every page.  See pre-order details below.

Changing Minds, Breaking Stigma, Achieving the Impossible

Volume 2 in The i’Mpossible Series

Overview

Storytelling is one of our oldest and greatest human achievements. Stories can enchant, empower, inspire, motivate, and even change the course of humankind. Volume 2 of the i’Mpossible Project–Changing Minds, Breaking Stigma, Achieving the Impossible, offers another 50 life-changing stories These are true tales from real people who have achieved incredible feats in the face of overwhelming odds, showing that impossible is just a state of mind—and that anything is possible. You’ll read about: an entrepreneur using his battle with alcohol abuse to empower others; an award winning high school student who battled bullying, self-harm, and an eating disorder to become her best self; and an actor who calls his depression “my frenemy Dewayne.” If you’re looking to turn “impossible” into “possible” in your world… you need to read this book!

to pre-order go to:  http://www.iampossibleproject.com/preorder/

Pax

Victoria