Now I would like to share my self-integration so far. I had 15 parts and am down to 10, if Storm goes. Lost one, little one, Francis (hard-worker), secret one and Storm are now no longer active parts of me. When they try to resurface, I gently (except must be forceful with Storm) ask them to leave and I distract myself as best as I can until me and the parts of me that I am allowing to stay (for now) and connect with all of us in any way I can. This feels safe.
My nana is a ray of sunshine wherever she goes. The quote I like best is by Henry David Thoreau ” and wherever she went it was spring” to this blog tonight I dedicate this post.
I am on a quest, once again. And nothing will stop me unless the Universe demands it of me… I have much work ahead of me but am piecing it all together and it is starting to make sense. To unravel my brain is not easy but recognizing patterns, coping mechanisms and reading inspirational works […]
Right now I am fighting the urge to drink. So far I am winning but it is an obsession today when my daughter is away. Minor annoyances occurring and it seems like a drink will solve all my problems. But I made a reminder card today why I can’t drink and reading it helped but […]
It started today on Facebook. I got a message from Jason Mraz’s sister (didn’t even know he had one) who had noticed I comment a lot on his fan page and she asked me why I never went to his fan page and said hi? I told her I was shy but she encouraged me […]
October 5th entry from A Year without Fear by Tama Kieves 365 Days of Magnificence 5-minute mind-set shifts “I’m going to ask you to trust in your life- more than in your script. You are always where you need to be. It’s not like the Universe dropped your call. Your wise eternal inner self didn’t […]
“Test results normal”, wonderful news. I don’t want to have cancer and inconvenience anyone. No I pray it is swift when I go and that I will be old. These are my thoughts tonight. I want to live! I want to see my adult kids grow up and be with them as long as I can. I must take better care of my health and am still having bladder issues but at least it isn’t cancer.
I am not surprised at anything lately. So much good but it is mixed with sadness over my dad living on a prayer and my mental health and now physical health problems. I’ll face it when I know but thanks for any prayers!
I was visiting with a close family member and she was sharing how she had heard a voice telling her something that came true. I asked her if it was God. She immediately said let’s not get you started. She thinks I am broken. I feel that I am not but this stigmatization of her referring to my many perceived messages from God as being bad or something…
It is so sad when people get sick. I am sick right now with continued bladder problems. Others have died, some have recovered. The ups and downs of life must help make us stronger in all we do. Not just choosing joy for some sort of fake happiness. No, looking for the good in all, people, places and things…