Bittersweet day, celebrating and such sadness for my brother-in-law who is on the verge of passing. I don’t do well with mixed emotions.
Happy that I am proud to be an American again!
But sad at the thought that my sister will be alone and that she is ok during these last few moments of her husband’s life on this earth.
I am ok though but not doing much today or yesterday as I am holding my own vigil over here for them since I can’t be with her or talk to her right now. The end is coming quick yet it is delayed. Hospice is surprised he made it through the nights. God’s timing and nobody else’s. God is good. I shall praise him in death, birth, and all in between.
For a minute I thought I wanted to be a death doula. But I can’t I know now and that’s ok because I can pray at least. Hard to pray right now. I feel like every action, every key I stroke and every breath I take is for them and for our nation, to no longer be divided.
Shall I publish this post?
Sure why not!
I dedicate this post to my brother in law and my sister.
peace, love, joy and light to all,