I will always be disordered…

I call it a disorder rather than an illness but when I am sick too it makes it really hard! I’m glad I’m not suicidal anymore albeit passively. I wonder for the future and other stressors that may cause a relapse but I must trust in God with all my heart ❤️ Pax Victoria

Just be held…

Dear readers, When life doesn’t go as planned I sometimes lay on my comfy bed and just sing this song by I believe Casting Crowns.  It also sings, “you’re world’s not falling apart it’s falling into place, just be held”. Life has been very difficult lately but today was a reminder to me again that […]

A timeless blog…

Not sure if this blog will repost so here goes I blog on my phone now so can’t see everything like on a computer. I’m doing much better these days and today was an awesome day! Got in my exercise, ate healthy with a couple of treats and saw my dad! Also listened to my […]

Anxiety is real…

For anyone who has experienced a state of extreme anxiety there are no need to explain but for those who have not…. Its crippling and very difficult! Last week was one big anxiety attack caused by situational stress. But this week is better already. The tide has turned and I’m hoping for a smooth season. […]

The answer is Jesus…

Dear readers, Much has occurred lately and haven’t been doing very well lately. Only a few maybe 2 people are aware of my recent demise which has included suicidal thoughts, much distress and the invariable torment one suffers with schizophrenia. But I have found much comfort in Jesus and am looking to Him for answers. […]