Time seems to move so slow when I am waiting
but alas it always comes eventually
well not always
the delusions come and go too
one minute I believe them to their very core
and again I believe that I am very special to a very great degree
the next I am disproven and relieved of the burden they bring
but I wait with joy
and each new day brings more peace as I trust in God Almighty, who made heaven and earth
It has been since August 2015, 2 years ago, that I have been waiting for my hearing. And Monday it finally happened and lasted fifteen minutes!
And now I have to wait two more months for the verdict. Lord help me!
My lawyer says it went well. To me it is all a big blur. I felt like the judge wasn’t even listening to me about why I can’t work because she kept looking down and then would immediately ask the next question. I understand my lawyer’s line of questioning which essentially were to prove I couldn’t work at any of the jobs they mentioned, but I felt like there could have been more said, just saying.
So all in all it went well but I will have to try very hard not to think about the fact that I may have to go to appeal…
God’s will be done!
My disability hearing is coming up on August 14, I will simply state the truth..
That I am disabled and unable to hold down a decent job. My anxiety rules my days although I do sleep at night.
I tried to work outside my field and did well in the training part of the job but when I was out of training I found it very hard to remember all that I needed to do and was severely stressed out each day I went to work. My psychiatrist agrees and recommends that I don’t work. I do help my frail mother at times and go see my dad who had a stroke and is paralyzed at a care facility. But to hold down a job I just don’t feel capable due to the Schizoaffective Disorder, Schizophrenia plus depression.
I am not worried, God has my back but it is still stressful to go through it all and show up in front of a judge.