Now that exercise has become a daily habit it seems like I am not even disordered anymore. New muscles seem to pop up as I vary my workouts daily to keep my body guessing. Today I went on a 4 mile uphill downhill hike. My feet are very tired but I feel good from the hike and know I will sleep good tonight like usual.
Thank you to all of you who shared what exercises you are doing to stay mentally fit. I just love life these days, with each new day presenting a new opportunity to feel great through exercise. I joined two hiking clubs, one is silent meditation hiking and the other one is more social and fast paced. I like the silent hikes better. I believe talking is overrated. I would much rather pray and observe nature in silence…. That being said I did receive a thought while on one of the silent meditation hikes in thinking a lot about my father and when he will die. The thought was that death is not a separation… This gives me hope that after he passes I will still feel connected to him although his body will no longer be present. But for now he is still with us and I enjoy every minute I get to spend with him. Today as I was leaving he was making oogly faces when I told him I was going to bring him more ressus peanut butter cup ice cream. He just loved it! These small moments leave me so happy!
The next time I see my pdoc in April I am going to discuss with him how to check if I still need the anti-anxiety meds and what is the best way to try going without, to taper down or just skip a dosage. I always check with my pdoc before changing any medication.
Can’t remember if I shared on here about taking an art class working with pewter but my art class is fun too and is very social. I am so picky when it comes to people but I really enjoy this small community of artists. I have made one good friend within the group, which I find as I get older is more rare than common. My “creation” piece is almost outlined and then I will start embossing certain areas. I will post a pic of it when it is done. I will still need to mount the pewter to wood and add finishing touches. I don’t work on it every day but only when I am in the mood and then it is therapeutic. If I work on it when I am not in the mood it feels forced and isn’t enjoyable but more of a chore.
As I continue to branch out and get involved in the community I have more hope. I still may work again but that remains to be seen so I am not worried about it right now. Still waiting on my permanent disability hearing. It has been a year but my lawyers say it may take 18 months now:(
Pax
Victoria
