Well I am happy to report that the new anti-anxiety medication is helping already. Once again medicine and my awesome psychiatrist have saved the day!
My anxiety is much less and I feel like I could possibly work at a low stress job but I am not rushing into anything. If we didn’t need the money I wouldn’t even bother but I am still waiting for permanent disability to kick in. Since I got fired from my last job that will help my case and hopefully will speed things up.
What is really helping right now is my walking and work outs at the gym! I took the day off from exercise yesterday and could feel the difference mentally. I am like many people I need to fight my depression with medicine and movement!
Nothing is easy right now but I am pushing through and getting things done anyway despite how I feel. I will make it to the gym today even if it is in the afternoon. I am excited about using some of the new machines that staff showed me on Saturday and because it is cold outside I am going to use the treadmill to get my miles in and use inclines to get a more intense work out!
Surrounding myself with positive people and inspirational quotes helps a lot too lately. I have a few good friends on FB who really post some neat things and I get a lot out of them and other things I read online on blogs and other sources.
I am just happy that the anxiety has left. Mentally I feel more with it and more motivated to keep my house in order. Having this disorder means so many things but I will not give up. Every journey starts with a single step and I am putting my best foot forward to make a difference in my life and that of others. Being charitable is hard when one is down but I try to help others as often as I can and it does help with my mood too.
The really great thing is that I am not psychotic right now despite the stress at my last job. I don’t want to be psychotic ever again. I want to be sober all the time and don’t even drink. I do use nicotine lozenges throughout the day but don’t see myself giving them up anytime soon and do smoke a few cigs here and there..
My journey has brought me thus far; it is amazing the progress I have made and I hope that I can encourage others who also suffer from Schizoaffective Disorder.
Pax
Victoria
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