So after a month of interviewing with this one mattress store, after my third interview, I got the call that I got the job! I was ecstatic to say the least. I start right away and it will be 40 hours a week.
So this means I am giving up on permanent disability for now and really trying to see if I can make it at a less stressful job. I think it will be fine because I did work for several years at a stressful job and going to work everyday wasn’t the problem, it was the stressful clients. This job will be much less stress and I should make some pretty good money.
We celebrated naturally last night and went to a steakhouse with my immediate family although my dear daughter wasn’t there nor my youngest son (sad face) but my eldest was there with his girlfriend and my husband so it was pretty cool.
The sad part is that I will not get to see my dad as much working full time but I know I will still go. My visits with him have gotten shorter anyway because he really is not with it and he doesn’t talk at all except occasionally. I am doing well with his eminent death. From the stages of grief I think I am in the acceptance stage. I love him dearly and don’t want him to die but I know it will happen sooner or later. It is my mom I worry about more because she is so frail and not doing well but I will still help her out on my days off and be there for her as much as possible.
All in all it will be a good thing that I am working, for the money, for my sanity, to feel productive, to force myself to get out of my house…. My pdoc is ok with it so that is cool!
I still have some days when I don’t feel like I can handle life very well. One day last week it was super hot and I had a major anxiety attack at Church. But we left early and I went home and felt better.
Has the heat ever caused any of you to have an anxiety attack like that?
Well that is enough rambling about me. Will keep you all posted on how work goes! I start Saturday so that will be great and one word for you ladies! I need work clothes so…