Well the days are strange these days. Some days I get a lot done and others I kind of bumble around not accomplishing much. But that’s ok because I can’t have perfect days every day, that would be unrealistic.
These days I am very grounded in the reality of my situation. I can’t work, not even part time. My career is toast and although I am sad about that because I actually do enjoy working it is ok because my life is very full with family, friends and all my readers some of whom have become good friends.
I take great pride in the upkeep of my house and actually enjoy days when I get to stay home and make it shine. I have also joined a book club for mental stimulation. Right now we are reading Thoreau which was my pick so I am in heaven; I just love his writing. I go to Church every week and practice my faith every day praying for all my loved ones and right now am praying for all who read this blog for relief such as I have found from this dastard disorder which does still rob my joy at times when I let it which sometimes is more often than I like to admit.
But I have hope, hope that while I live and breathe I can enjoy life and look forward to life eternal when I will no longer suffer from SA. If I can give just one person hope, that is enough. Coming to a place of acceptance is the greatest accomplishment and I hope that all of you can find the same. Your life is not over because you have this disorder, different yes, but not over.
The best thing I have done is to find a psychiatrist who I trust with everything to get the medication cocktail just right and also finding a therapist who I trust as well to work through some of the facets of this disorder that I don’t discuss with my pdoc like how to live life with this disorder. I no longer see this therapist but will forever hold onto her comforting sessions when I got to be myself and have a good sounding board to check in my sometimes still strange ideas and hear solutions which I couldn’t think of by myself. Exercise is also key to my well being. I walk sometimes 7 miles a day and enjoy this cheap hobby very much which brings me great relief of the depression that I still face at times. Eating well is also vital to my well being. I probably eat healthier now than ever before and I have lost 30 pounds doing so with the help of Weight Watchers to learn how to eat smart and be more active.
These are the main ways I stay sane. Like I said not every day is perfect but the days that are are awesome.
Readers, write in and share some of your secrets for dealing with this disorder!
Pax
Victoria
