Solitude can be good at times…

Well what can I say that hasn’t already been said? Life is still good. Couldn’t find anyone to go to the beach with me so I went by myself and glad I did. The day was warm with light winds and the ocean was impeccable. Got good coffee, read a book and just enjoyed being alone for a bit. Sometimes it is hard for me to get out of my house so today was progress. I can get to work ok and meetings but to just get out on my day off can be a challenge. The main thing is that I don’t have a lot of money to spare right now due to my trip in June. I try to watch every penny.
One thing I did recently that was not helpful was read a book about one woman’s psychotic journey to recovery. This was not helpful because I try to forget that period for a good reason, it wasn’t fun but terrible. I never want to be psychotic again and lose touch with reality. I hold onto my sanity with all that I am. I had read this book before and it was helpful, but not now. Learning what is helpful or not is key to recovery I believe.

Pax

Victoria

Learning to relax again…

Today was a pretty good day.  I worked in the morning and in the afternoon went whale watching off of the coast of Santa Barbara.  My friend and I saw about ten whales which was magnificent to see these beautiful creatures coasting sometimes along the side of the boat or watch them playing from afar.  But the best part was I was at ease with myself and at one point as I was relaxing on the cozy cushions on the boat I just sat there and felt the sun on my face and felt so relaxed.  It was incredible from where I was just a few months ago.  The best part is I get to go out again on the same boat on Saturday with my husband.

What does this have to do with recovery from Schizoaffective Disorder?  A lot.  I don’t relax very easy as I am pretty anxious most of the time but today out on the water I felt like my old self again which was pretty awesome.  Getting out in nature lately has really helped my recovery.  I will never be fully recovered but little by little I feel like I am becoming more symptom free on medicine and learning to live with the side effects.  Here is to all of us who have this terrible disorder, whether it is nature, church, or anything we enjoy, let us all partake in life again and attempt better days like today!

Pax

Victoria

Learning how to relax again…

Today was a pretty good day.  I worked in the morning and in the afternoon went whale watching off of the coast of Santa Barbara.  My friend and I saw about ten whales which was magnificent to see these beautiful creatures coasting sometimes along the side of the boat or watch them playing from afar.  But the best part was I was at ease with myself and at one point as I was relaxing on the cozy cushions on the boat I just sat there and felt the sun on my face and felt so relaxed.  It was incredible from where I was just a few months ago.  The best part is I get to go out again on the same boat on Saturday with my husband.

What does this have to do with recovery from Schizoaffective Disorder?  A lot.  I don’t relax very easy as I am pretty anxious most of the time but today out on the water I felt like my old self again which was pretty awesome.  Getting out in nature lately has really helped my recovery.  I will never be fully recovered but little by little I feel like I am becoming more symptom free on medicine and learning to live with the side effects.  Here is to all of us who have this terrible disorder, whether it is nature, church, or anything we enjoy, let us all partake in life again and attempt better days like today!

Pax

Victoria