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My name is Victoria and I suffer from Schizoaffective Disorder (SA), which is basically Schizophrenia plus depression; this blog journals my progress from fall 2013 to now although I was diagnosed in 2008. I have experienced both the positive (hallucinations and delusions) and negative symptoms (lack of motivation, flat affect. social difficulties) of Schizophrenia and while the positive symptoms have been under control with Risperdal, since being diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder by UCLA in 2008, I have still suffered from the negative symptoms until recently when my psychiatrist added Latuda. Post diagnosis I received my Masters Degree in Psychology and used to work in the mental health field until stress caused me to try to go on permanent disability in September 2015. I was off for one year on disability but it took so long I found a job 2 weeks ago and it is low stress but not in the mental health field. I am doing sales and doing well so far in my training. I go live November 1st and look forward to making some good money as well as help people with products I believe in that are good for their health.
I started this blog in fall 2013 which journals my personal recovery from Schizophrenia. The earliest entries chart my psychotic period 2006/2007 with much in between and my current focus is managing the negative symptoms of Schizophrenia. I welcome all feedback and enjoy meeting new people through this blog and other articles I have written. I have also written a book which is available on Amazon by me, Victoria Marie Alonso- My personal recovery from Schizophrenia, which is for loved ones or those afflicted with this disorder. This blog has been viewed over 8000 times and by over 50 countries! Bienvenidos a todos! Welcome to all!
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My circle of life has come round full circle today, yes it is my birthday but I don’t wish for happy birthdays or congratulations. Instead I am taking quiet moments by myself to think and ponder on the greatness of life and what my mental illness means to me.
It means so much…When I was psychotic I was on a different plane of existence. It was beautiful, awesome and scary all at the same time. Now that I am on medication the symptoms are managed but I have awakened spiritually since that first encounter in 2008, 8 years ago. I am much more in tuned with God and feel at peace being on medication.
I was supposed to work today but God had other plans. I felt sick and got out of work, came home and took a 3 hour nap and now am just relaxing before I go out to dinner with my loving family. I watched a Ted talk on spirituality vs psychosis and found it to be very interesting. I would be revered in certain cultures and encouraged to be psychotic or spiritually attuned. The stigma of mental illness would not follow me, instead I would be mentored by someone else who had undergone the same sorts of experiences.
Wow! That is an amazing thought to have on my birthday!
Yet, I know that I will never go off my medication as there are no cultures here that support this type of life.
But in the same breath I can say that my spiritual life is very good right now. I pray upon awakening and throughout the day and before retiring at night. I believe in God the Father Almighty who made heaven and earth!
May the God of our understanding comfort you all in all your trials and experiences whether medicated or not. We each have our own path and walk it the best we can. For me it is what it is and I don’t regret it.