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My name is Victoria and I suffer from Schizoaffective Disorder (SA), which is basically Schizophrenia plus depression; this blog journals my progress from fall 2013 to now although I was diagnosed in 2008. I have experienced both the positive (hallucinations and delusions) and negative symptoms (lack of motivation, flat affect. social difficulties) of Schizophrenia and while the positive symptoms have been under control with Risperdal, since being diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder by UCLA in 2008, I have still suffered from the negative symptoms until recently when my psychiatrist added Latuda. Post diagnosis I received my Masters Degree in Psychology and used to work in the mental health field until stress caused me to go on permanent disability in September 2015.
I started this blog in fall 2013 which journals my personal recovery from Schizophrenia. The earliest entries chart my psychotic period 2006/2007 with much in between and my current focus is managing the negative symptoms of Schizophrenia. I welcome all feedback and enjoy meeting new people through this blog and other articles I have written. I have also written a book which is available on Amazon by me, Victoria Marie Alonso- My personal recovery from Schizophrenia, which is for loved ones or those afflicted with this disorder. This blog has been viewed over 6,000 times and by over 50 countries! Bienvenidos a todos! Welcome to all!
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Well it has been a little while now that I have been on disability and have not had to think about work. I am enjoying my life for the most part although some days there are new challenges which lead me to negative thinking. I’m not suicidal but rather just kind of feel like life has no meaning. That being said, my spiritual life has been much more active now that I am not working.
I am Catholic and have been going to Mass again every week with my elderly parents. To think I used to hate them saddens me; now they are such a huge part of my life. I spend several days a week with them and really appreciate that my parents are still alive and still active in my life. They love to tell stories and talk about old times which is a lot of fun!
My house has never been cleaner but I still have some work to do mainly keep up with the dog hair and dust from the back yard. I also really need to wash my car but with the drought here in California it is hard to know when is a safe time to do so. That’s my excuse anyway lol. I am trying to watch every dollar I spend but may splurge and pay 5 bucks to just get it watched. The finances are slowly getting better with diligence at not spending any money on unnecessary items. I have been going to the local thrift store to buy clothes and I actually found a black leather jacket which fits me for cheap in great condition.
One thing I want to write about is the importance of regular exercise. I walk and do a few classes at the local YMCA and the days I exercise I definitely feel much better. Mornings are hard though and unfortunately I usually get my exercise around 5pm when it cools down. I still love my walks but recently took two days off and I really felt it mentally. I also have lost almost 30 pounds by walking and watching what I eat so that feels great!!!! The medicine I am on causes weight gain so I wasn’t sure I would be able to lose the weight but it has not been a problem and going to weight watchers definitely is helping me. I still have 20 to 30 pounds to get rid of but it shouldn’t be a problem if I keep doing what I am doing.
I am almost ready to start volunteering so that is exciting. I have been waiting until I get my house, bills and children in order before I venture out. I might even take a class at the local community college to learn something new. My psychiatrist wants me to keep my brain engaged in positive things and I don’t think watching murder mysteries on Netflix fits the bill lol.
Well that is my quick update on how I am doing, pretty good for the most part.
My birthday is next week and I am going to Colorado to visit my daughter. She has all sorts of plans for us so it should be a great time for me and my husband to get away.