Welcome to my blog! Please feel free to read this short bio if you are new, return readers can scroll down to new post, thanks.
My name is Victoria and I suffer from Schizoaffective Disorder (SA), which is basically Schizophrenia plus depression; this blog journals my progress from fall 2013 to now although I was diagnosed in 2008.
I have experienced both the positive (hallucinations and delusions) and negative symptoms (lack of motivation, flat affect. social difficulties) of Schizophrenia and while the positive symptoms have been under control with Risperdal, since being diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder by UCLA in 2008, I suffered from the negative symptoms until a year and a half ago when my psychiatrist added Latuda and now live more symptom free of the negative symptoms.
Post diagnosis I received my Masters Degree in Psychology and used to work in the mental health field until stress caused me to go on permanent disability in September 2015.
I started this blog in fall 2013 which journals my personal recovery from Schizophrenia. The earliest entries chart my psychotic period 2006/2007 with much in between and my current focus is managing the negative symptoms of Schizophrenia.
I welcome all feedback and enjoy meeting new people through this blog and other articles I have written. I have also written a book which is available on Amazon by me, Victoria Marie Alonso- My personal recovery from Schizophrenia, which is for loved ones or those afflicted with this disorder.
This blog has been viewed almost 10,000 times and by over 50 countries! Bienvenidos a todos! Welcome to all!
Please feel free to email me to share your story or that of a loved one at:firstname.lastname@example.org
Other mental health providers or researchers are welcome to ask any questions, as well.
My last few posts have been rather depressing but I don’t dare apologize for there are times when we will feel bad and it is better to be honest about how one feels rather than to just lie and say I am ok. I wasn’t ok and do still have days when I am not ok but I am getting through these hard times with a new hope that I believe is answered prayer.
Prayer is never wasted, no it shakes the heart of God I believe and shaking has occurred!
Despite the ups and downs with my dad’s condition I have been able to get off my duff and accomplish many things. Not only that but I also feel I am doing much better now thanks to a few pro-active things I have done. Mainly, I have stopped feeling sorry for myself and forgiven myself and others for many mistakes I and others have made. This is freeing…
We are not human machines made perfect. No, we mess up, don’t always say the right thing and often doubt our abilities. And this is for everyone, not just those with a mental disorder like so many of us on here. I have many friends I have met through my blog who suffer from this disorder or have loved ones afflicted and I cherish that moment when I check my email and I find an email from a friend I already had or when it is a new person either sharing their story or asking me to share mine through many different venues.
I have gotten really good feedback from others that I am making a difference so that is just super. I have always thought, “if I can just help one person by sharing my story it is worth it”. And I know I have helped at least one person so I will continue to blog and share my ups and downs on here and wherever else God leads me.
I have new hope that this world we live in will get better because of me and others like me who genuinely care about others. Thank you for being a part of my recovery!