Acceptance

Welcome to my blog!  Please feel free to read this short bio if you are new, return readers can scroll down to new post, thanks.

My name is Victoria and I suffer from Schizoaffective Disorder,which is basically Schizophrenia plus depression; this blog journals my progress from fall 2013 to now although I was diagnosed in 2008.  I have experienced both the positive (hallucinations and delusions) and negative (lack of motivation, flat affect)  symptoms of Schizophrenia and while the positive symptoms have been under control with Risperdal, since being diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder by UCLA in 2008, I have still suffered from the negative symptoms until recently when my psychiatrist added Latuda. Post diagnosis I received my Masters Degree in Psychology and work in the mental health field currently.

I started this blog in fall 2013 which journals my personal recovery from Schizophrenia.  The earliest entries chart my psychotic period 2006/2007 with much in between and my current focus is managing the negative symptoms of Schizophrenia. I welcome all feedback and enjoy meeting new people  through this blog and other articles I have written.  I have also written a book which is available on Amazon by myself, Victoria Marie Alonso- My personal recovery from Schizophrenia, which is for loved ones or those afflicted with this disorder.  This blog has been viwed almost 4,000 times and by over 50 countries!  Bienvenidos a todos!  Welcome to all!

Please feel free to email me to share your story or that of a loved one at: victoriamariealonso@yahoo.com

Other mental health providers or researchers are welcome to ask any questions, as well.

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After a minor relapse I am doing better again, thanks to medicine and even more importantly removing stress from my life.   I cannot push myself the way I used to pre-schizophrenia days.  I am making good decisions and with the support of my family and friends am able to hold down a job, manage a household and keep myself healthy.  I am trying to exercise more these days, and little by little I get there.  I have decided not to go on to get my doctorate, it is enough the work I do now, working with families; although, I have a sense of loss when it comes to the end of the day.  Here is to acceptance, of what is now and what is to come…

Pax

Victoria

Another relapse…

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Will I ever learn I wonder?  Too much stress brings back the psychotic symptoms and once again I have gone through this.  Luckily, my psychiatrist is amazing and trusts my observations.  He respects me as an intelligent person.  Will write more soon, but wanted to give this quick update.

Pax

Victoria

Talking about Schizophrenia

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I don’t tell very many people that I have this disorder; I am not sure how I feel about that.  2 people at my work know and my main boss knows I have a mental health condition.  I truly wish I could tell everyone, that I didn’t have to be ashamed for what is beyond my control.  I still suffer from some of the symptoms but they do not affect my overall functioning and are not noticeble to others for the most part because I do feel that I come off as strange to some people.  Many people think the world of me but if the truth were known they would not be so easily impressed.  But back to where I started before I digressed- Do any of my readers have any experiences with this?  I invite you to write to me or comment below.  Going to have a relaxing weekend, enjoy! to everyone around the world.  Australia, Greece and a few other countries have joined us.

Pax

Victoria

A prayer for all with Schizophrenia

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I saw my psychiatrist today and it was great to report how well I am doing on the Latuda.  No changes and I don’t have to see him for 6 months.  I am much more connected to God these days, and friends and family.  Work is great although demanding.  Sometimes I even forget I have this disorder.

Others do not do so well; for others with Schizophrenia medicine does not work well and doctors don’t try different combinations as did mine.  For these people I send up a prayer, that they may get help as I have done and be able to live happy and productive lives!

Pax

Victoria

Side effect of Latuda

 

Newest blog:    Well, unfortunately I suffered from a side effect of the Latuda and had to call my pdoc.  He lowered the mg and the side effect has diminished quickly.  Thanks to all for all the support.  This blog is really helpful in meeting new people and discussing the many facets of this condition.

Pax

Victoria

More social lately

Another benefit of the Latuda is that I have been making more social connections.  And with the savings card I now pay only twenty five dollars a month for it!

Today I went to a memorial for my neighbor.  I wasn’t close to him but my husband was so I went to show my respect.  I respect death too, today I have pondered much about the meaning of death….  I am just glad I am no longer passively suicidal.  Today I felt the wind and had such peace.  Life is good again after a long stretch of sorrow.

Pax,

Victoria